24.18.59 I hope she's done fighting you The words you scream are so bitter You smoke cigarettes in your car But you use my perfume to cover it up And I think you must've hated me All I could do was love you There isn't peace when one's always in pain I read back the letter where you called me yours You took away every part of me But I just opened the door and let you in You knew how much I loved you I loved you since I struggled to spit it out I'm pretty sure that you just spent a band On some opioid you swore you quit Well, I know I can never save you But I sure wish I could be first to the high To something I hope you and your girl make up Maybe you'll move out and chase a dream I think that you could probably save yourself And I'm sorry that I couldn't help I think you never really wanted me So all I could do was love you into sheets There is something magical about you still I loved you since I knew how to breathe You were wrong, you know what you said But I just sat there and said "it's fine" And it started to rot me inside Yet I still love the girl I know I'm sitting across from your drug dealer He's cold, like the vanity, your dust Well, I just sit and watch in awe I still kissed you with your liquor lips Sometime you're such a goddamn liar And you push me away, "come back" You used to say it wasn't my fault That changed about a week ago If you love me, then how come you're gone? You were mine, you were mine At some point in July You came home, you loved me You were fine, possibly? But I loved the old you