FIRST TO FUCK. He becomes boy Like he should Love feels like a privilege He begs for my attention in bed like I'm attracted to his savior He bends to my touch Torso tucked in, sucked Look anywhere but his eyes I’m limp, he’s ragged We are on two different sides I try to keep my body still He doesn’t notice, why should he? It all reminds me of the nineteenth Me and my demons cry together I know they see my pain and struggle This is the end of any real kind of connection Only my body has seen violence more times than it’s seen kindness Break my heart Kiss my scars First to fuck First to fuck The world is burning, on fire While you’re inside her, liar I let guttural noises escape It might look happy to some If either of us were But you won’t lie to me, you’ll despise me anyways And when you’re home You’ll block me and tell your friends how tiny I look In my black shorts and tank top that I begged you to leave alone But little boy Eventually you’ll get what’s coming for you, it’s knocking at the door You’ll know my power when your hands are cut off It’s wife and whore But that’s what’s expected Couldn’t you beg for my taste, I’m bored, paste You’re starving for me I can’t want it I’ll watch you try to make me finish While my eyes are rolling