dig Every little finger and limb Everything from your childhood is dropped off at his basement door, welcome to hell They say I have a model face, You’re taking me down, he’s saying I’m a porn star And his dad says I’m tight, and she’s calling me baby And maybe if I put my grief aside, it won’t be so lonely My eyes are bloodshot, my body slowing, I’m high They say I withered around at 3:42PM There’s no more angles he could put me in When the positions he’s tried didn’t get me to relent Men love to send me photos of their dicks Between the hours of dinner and snack time Over a period of about 3 years, sounds right I’ve become accustomed to running thin, dry So there is nothing left when they force me apart It is such an honor to be your sex scapegoat If I’m the mimic of his first love, just taller and fatter Sleight-of-hand, poof! Dismemberment If I am your masturbation motivation Something that performs as provocative as possible All of the boys at the table are listening close He’s telling them all what he thinks I liked the most, I stand, watch Your jaw is unhinged and your bones all snapped clean in half And my words poured down your throat like tequila, mezcal Cause death is in your hair, everywhere It’s in my body, it’s coating the floor, the blinds, the BLIND VIOLENCE is everywhere And I can always count on men to fill the air They’ll put it there, don’t worry My head against the table and a hand around my neck Don’t you dare ruin his prized possession’s face But he’ll ruin every crevice, dark part of me He gifts me a Hello Kitty shirt (you can’t make this shit up) Then I look like the minors in the porn he ingests The idea of me being a child is so entertaining, soliciting So he gives me a teddy bear, pink and inviting Because a child is easier to rape than an adult There’s no fighting or screaming, just the third and worse response My pajamas shouldn’t be sexy, you pathetic abuser I’ll be in the pews at your wedding, dressed in white I’ll be the judge at your parole hearing when you get denied Oh, God, I’m anxious to testify at the hands of a jury You think such arrogance will make me forgotten But you’ll see me in your wife, in your daughter, and grandchild The adoring smiles that once looked at you for love Fuck you I’ll be everywhere In your oven, in your car exhaust, polluted air Breathe me in, regret and guilt, confusion You’re already everywhere And if you’re not, fuck, I guess I’ll put you there I’ll haunt you like you haunt me I’ll haunt you like you haunt me I’ll haunt you like you haunt me I’ll haunt you like you haunt me Regret, harm, confusion I’m everywhere In your hair and teeth Skin and bones, blood 1 in 3 women is the updated statistic That’s your mother or your sister or your fucking next door neighbor They’re walking around in sweatpants, dresses to the ground Anything to keep you away The key to life is to just shut up and obey So you’ll become the slut you so desperately wanted You’d fuck me when you kill me Just to relieve yourself of mercy