STARLING. I see your white car on the highway at night One text you send, you wrecked again Trusted you to date, thought you really loved me You took everything I healed from and used it to destroy me And I don't believe you think about my mind from time to time But I cling to your birthday like it's my mothers arms My undying love, you were still my starling And I hear your voice inside my mind when she says she loves me And I've tried to be tough, I've tried to be kind How could you act like I was at fault for your hands? And I don't think I care, I tell them "I'm fine" But I can't let you go, you're in my scars, in my mind, all the time The conversations we had while I was asleep in Italy In your car, in your arms, in the mirror with you around me Yeah, you were so kind when I was crying, make me feel okay And now I feel like a lost child searching for her mother And I try to understand why you'd call me that name Well, I hold onto your details and your letters at eight And I see your new girl, she makes you smile like I did And I'm moved on, but you're in love, and it's not with me It feels like a burden, your name on mine Your name burns more under my skin You built my love and let it go You have everything but it's not enough I try to let go, I've become so mean But even in my dreams, I forgive you again And I'm trying to be strong, trying to stay clean But you've held a stake in my heart for so long For so long