DISGUST & DESPISE I'm curled up, sheets pressed against me He's coercing me I love her, she feels sweet, sickly She can't see, but I can When she washes my hair There's sand in the soap Wearing my prom dress You say "Merry Christmas" I want to feel free again I want to know why it hurts I wanna be hers again I wanna win the case I want her to need me I want her to ask She gives me love, But it's not enough to erase his touch I'm in bed, sick and sound, topless She's inside of me I love her, open my eyes, lips I'm screaming, talking, terrified, please don't leave Soft hands, cold heart Reckless You know how to get to me He's in my dreams, but now so are you I know just what I need to do It's only the answer If I decide I'm strong enough So I'm disgusting, I hope you don't Despise me in your mouth I'm trying so hard