rowan My sunlight shines best when the stars are out Always inebriated on the longest weekends She acts so cool, calm, she’s not collected Only softening when I pry her open Nineteen and a world of pain I would paint murals for the Louvre to hang I hope I die with you Save me from the lack of air in my lungs But then the morning comes Your sap dries up and disappears I am still here, waiting for your sugar I fall apart They don’t know anything about what I said Selling myself to your lust and my addiction Now the tropics are gone and we are right here How your words sit in my brain like silt Not even your memory could vacate me Terrified of what happens when you hate me A conversation we have continually I’ll always yearn for you the way I yearn for air Cause I guess I did everything wrong in hindsight I liked you, you told me you loved me and baby, I agree Now I wear your scars with pride I love you even in this hospital bed But in the right light I’d do anything for you You know I’d give it all for you You know I’d get on a flight to your coordinates Hold you in my arms until you drift to sleep, promise Then I’ll swear I’ll be a good girlfriend I have changed Did they ever know me? The way you know me? Facing your apartment door The air is heavy with the smell of lavender Live for you and die to reveal my skull Do you hate me? Do you want me? Decomposing quick Revealing my snapdragon heart I’ve picked out the sheets for my dorm room You’ve been decorating in hopes of my company Love is all I need from your lips But I wouldn’t mind your tongue in my cavern Cause I love you Tell me I’m your pretty girl I didn’t mean to hurt you But I knew you would Will you be my friend forever? I’d reach into your soul And fix up all your wounds Will it heal you forever? Do you hate me? Do I make you angry? Darling, time forgives all Except for me I’d do anything for your smile And your tendrils on my bare shoulder I’d let you inside my body, swear to God Then lay next to you As you breathe heavily So I’ll let you walk away to spare your sanity To be known is to be loved Is to put yourself through the rings of fire Just to be there for you in the bleachers You’re more than right It could happen if I tried Prognosis terrifies me, foot of my bed I see your green scales