strawberry We were silent till the morning Yesterday was the day you left But when your dad entered home A strange likeness towards child me cowered in the hallway The doctors scare you with their big words But I am yours I’m still yours Time is your biggest enemy in the October autumn light I ask for a smoke after the fight Made you into someone you were so clearly not It was so pretty in springtime It was the rust on the coins you had me fetch And you said things to me that I can’t bring myself to repeat You know it too Tell me about your mom and her weddings And think about the way I’d hold you, ease When you would shatter in my arms Shatter, not a stone Held you deep in my heart, you’re half of me Lay me to rest under weeping willow Put me on your abdicated throne I hear their voices, ugly You’re kissing me, killing me When you take my flowers on an April morning Wishing you had been the first You’ll cut your hair, I’ll get diagnosed I’ve warned you I can hate you so easily That photo on your wall you broke your head through, hung by me I still bleed; I hurt for you the way a mother does And you could be right and I’m just not optimistic anymore Cause, goddamn, my love, I’m so ugly and you’re blue Tell me about your crimes, I’ll worry Think about me when I’m on the coast When I’ll be testifying at sun-kissed skin Holding your love in a furry animal Think of the life you promised me Suffer I will if it means you’ll hold me When I don’t wake up anymore Wake in the ICU Holding my letters You know it’s all for you Think of me in time Strawberry hair I dyed Where you wrapped your arms around my waist To be infected by you again